My three year old (a.k.a ECB) is a ball of energy. He makes his presence known when he walks into a room. He calls me pretty Mama and whenever I make something delicious to eat he tells me I’m the best with a thumbs up and a wink. When we tell him to whisper or lower his voice it goes from very loud to just loud. He is the life of our home.
He does the cutest thing when he wants me to stop dead in my tracks. He doesn’t tell me to stop what I’m doing but instead screams “Pause Mama pause!” I love it and I hope he never changes it.
If I’m running up the stairs to get something and he wants to come along…”Pause Mama pause!”
If I’m sitting on the couch and about to read a book that he wants to listen to as well…”Pause Mama pause!”
If I’m playing cars with him and he needs to get an additional 10 cars from the playroom in his little basket…”Pause Mama pause!”
My sweet ECB if only you knew how much I would like to pause this moment in your life. I want to keep you small so I can enjoy your cute little phrases for just a little longer. I want to carry you around and give you cuddles forever. But most of all I want to press pause so I can keep you small and under my wing, protected. I don’t want for you to know what hate is, or what injustice is or what it means to fail. I want you to live in your little happy kid bubble.
The truth is if I pressed pause you would not feel the warmth of love or witness justice being served. And how will you ever taste the sweetness of success without ever failing? As far as your protection, that I will leave to the All Mighty Allah. By placing my trust in Him I know you will be protected whether I am with you or not.